Quick Update...

...yeah right! Like that can happen... LOL! You guys seen my other blogs!? Those were supposed to be SHORT updates! Hehe...

Anywho... this one will be a short note... (crosses fingers and hopes) Just wanted to update everyone on what's going on in my world. I know I've been gone about a week.... Internet issues at home. BOO! >=/ But I am hopeful to getting them resolved by the end of the week at the latest. If what I'm thinking it is turns out it isn't, then I'm going to have to reformat my computer. UGH! Not looking foward to that AT ALL!

Anywho. The weight loss continues, however... when I weighed myself yesterday (after a week of not weighing) I was actually 3 lbs heavier... must have been cuz I'd eaten a few hours before I weighed. Despite that, I feel lighter, I'm not in AS much pain, and can move better than I was, not to mention I feel like I'm swimming in my clothes they're starting to get baggy on me. Amazing what one can do with dertmination. YAY ME! *pats myself on the back* Keep up the good work, Jenna.

OMG!! I actually found a bag of my favorite hard candy in my purse when I got to work tonight. "MMm! Butterscotch!", I thought to myself... popped one in my mouth and by the time it was gone, I was holding my stomach saying "BLECK! That was TOO sweet!" O.O OMG!! Did I SERIOUSLY just go there! *nods lots* Yes, I did! =)

I got to looking around on the internet today and found an alternative to the GB (Gastric Bypass... which I've kicked around the idea of for a few years now) and I've found a sufficient alternative. It's called the Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy (VSG). Unlike the GB where they completely bypassing and re-route your "plumbing", the VSG cuts away about 2/3 - 3/4 of the stomach, keeping the portion that controls certain hormone productions required for healthy weight loss intact. No re-routing of your intestines. You will litterally have a stomach that is the shape and size of a banana. No kidding! Not only that, but the VSG doesn't have A LOT of the risks and side-effects that a GB has. It's a significantly shorter procedure, take anywhere from half an hour to 45 minutes to complete whereas the GB takes in upwards of an hour and a half to complete. What does that mean? It means you're less likely to develop a PE or other bloodclot (which is good news for me).

From all the research I've done on it and the video testimonials ALL OVER youtube, there appears to be a foremost leading surgeon where this particular surgery is concerned... a Dr. Guillermo Alvarez, and he's actually in Mexico.

With the VSG, he wants you to stay 2 days in the hospital and 2 days in a hotel afterward so that he can check up on you over the course of the week. After that, you're free to go home. From all the testimonials on youtube that I watched, he apparently stays in touch with his patients and does all that he can to help them out whenever they need the help. His patients refer to him becoming a friend after surgery, stating that he truly cares for the well-being of his patients. He even holds 'reunion' events annually. All of the testimonials I saw are of people who sing his praises and appear to be 'over the moon' happpy about what he's done for them.

Anywho.... that's that... is something I'll certainly bring up to my cousin, the dr, and see what she says about it.

On the relationship front... I swear... I feel like a bloody yo-yo... Chris is struggling with some burried emotions that have bubbled to the surface lately. Instead of talking to me about them, he totally clams up and distances himself from me. Wont talk to me, wont call me, wont ask me to call him either, for that matter.

I get the sense that he's seeing himself as "weak" for "feeling" the way he's been feeling. I sense that he may even think that I'd think he's 'weak' for being emotional lately. But, I don't. I like the fact that he's sensative! I like the fact that he tells me when he gets to see me again, he's probably going to cry like a little girl! LOL But I don't like that he's bottling all this up and shutting it away inside of him, letting it eat at him. I don't like that he feels like he can't talk to me about what he's feeling and thinking and going through. I've told him I'm here for him and that he doesn't have to go through it alone.... he's still not said anything to me in 3 days. -sigh- I feel like it would be different if I were there in person as oppsoed to being here. Makes a big difference I suppose.

Chris is a wonderful man, I just wish he wouldn't pull away from me when he and I both know that he truly needs... someone... be it me or whomever... to be a shoulder for him when he needs one. I just feel like he see's it coming... the wrecking ball of emotions... and then he slams the door in my face when I ask what's wrong and then he runs and hides. It can be so damn infuriating and frustrating at times, but all I can do is simply stand here at the door and wait for him to come back and open it. To show him that I'm not going anywhere and that I'm not afraid of emotions, be them his or mine or anyone's for that matter. I simply have to wait to be pulled in again, like a yo-yo on a sting... only to be cast away from him again the next time it happens. -sigh- I love him. I truly, honestly do, and I don't plan on going anywhere until he throws me away and says he doesn't want me anymore.

Well... I guess that will be all for the time being. Sooooooo slllleeeeeeepppppppppyyyyyyyy! I'm ready to be home and in the bed.

Will update again in a few days. =)